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I know I haven't posted in like a week. I haven't been in my best mindset, but that all changed on Thursday! I tried something new and LOVED it! Best news is, it's good for the mind the body and the soul! Yes, I'm talking about Yoga! My sister wanted to take a class or two while she is here on vacation and so being the sweet, never humble, sister that I am, I agreed to go along. During the day I really just wanted for it to fall through the cracks and we come up with something else to do. Snuggle a baby. Watch a silly movie. Play cards. Nope. Didn't happen.

Off to Yoga we went. Erin had found a studio in Summerville that had some classes that we could both attend with our varying schedules. The Yoga Loft of Summerville. (http://www.yogaloftsc.com/) We went to beginners yoga at 530pm. My thoughts before we even walked in for class, which can show you how mentally disturbed I am, were that some stick thin young girl would be our teacher. That everyone in the class would be skinny and pretty and all yoga geared out, while I'm in yoga pants that I've had for YEARS and two tank tops that showed every lump and bump in my body. I was surprised to see that I was most likely the youngest in the class. The instructor was a woman in her 40's and not what you would think of a typical Yogi (or what I would think of a typical yogi. You know like the ones you see on TV?!) This just so happened to calm my nerves and think that everything is going to be ok. At the beginning of the class the instructor told us to envision a goal for the class to focus on and help to maintain our focus. My goal was to just let go and allow myself to enjoy this.

I was very surprised to find out that I really enjoyed it and so did my body. The stretching made my back that carries more than it's fair share feel like a million bucks. I surprised my sister at how flexible I was. That made me feel good because there were certainly times where the girls were closer to my face than I would have appreciated and that certainly didn't make me feel flexible. Halfway through the class I had the most cliche thought. I felt centered. My head was still. My heart was calm. My weight was so evenly distributed that it literally made me feel like I was weightless. I couldn't have felt any better leaving class on Thursday.

I have made it my goal to go every week. Thursday's will be my day. I'll get off work. Go on my walk. start some laundry or clean around the house. Head off to yoga and then come home to enjoy a relaxing evening to myself. Knowing that Lucas will get to hang out with my parents after school and then have some quality time with his Dad afterwards will help me enjoy this day of peace and relaxation.

I'm going to end this on a happy note. My day today was shopping for clothes and I could go on and on about how I felt about myself while trying on clothes, but that's not the taste I want in my mouth before bed. I'm working on change and I'm proud of myself. I got some new shoes today to help me to walk with a little more pep in my step! I'm going to lose this weight!

Thanks everyone for the encouragement. Whether it's on the blog, Facebook or in person, It really means a lot for me to know that there are people out there that are pulling for me. I don't always support myself and make the best decisions, but knowing you care makes me try harder!

On another note, two more days with my sister and her sweet little family in town. It's sad, but it's been a blessing to be able to spend this time with them. I'm incredibly proud of the mother she has become and I love her sweet little boy so very very much!

Weight: not sure haven't been on the scale maybe tomorrow.

Losing it,

Lisa