Stuck.

My heart and body want to do better but my stomach wants yummy food. I bought pudding and oatmeal cookies today. I couldn't not. Maybe it's easier for me to work on moderation than to eliminate sweets. It's really the big holdup in my head. I've been eating well but fantasizing about sweets.

I dunno. I think I'm in my head this week even though I should be proud of the work I've done. I have walked regularly this week. More than I've not! This is pretty big for me. I've been a couch potato. Harsh wording but pretty true! That should be something to celebrate yet I'm focusing on what I can't have or that I haven't been doing.

I think this weeks challenge is to be positive and celebrate the changes I have made. To not focus on the small mistypes because they are still probably better than what I was doing.

Weight 194.2. (could have been worse after that doughnut fundraiser)

Losing it,

Lisa

Doing it!

I have walked two days in a row and I'm enjoying the endorphins, the conversation and the overall good feeling of moving! Thanks Lisa (same name, different person) for the motivation and walking buddy!

Thanks Kacee for being you! You are truly kind and motivating and I'm so proud of you! I know you must feel great!!!

Thanks to Joe for getting me the slightly offensive but surely helpful fitbit (jazzed up pedometer) for valentines day! I've walked over 11000 steps both Tuesday and today!

Pretty proud of myself this week!

Losing it,

Lisa

Monday...

Had a good day but still trying to figure things out. Fighting cravings and pretty sure I'm gonna lose. I just want a real sweet. I guess you could say, it's just tonight but I know me and I worry that it won't be.

I guess my goal for this week is to get moving! Going to walk with Lisa ( same name different person) after work and that's a start. Right?

I know this took years to put on so this won't be a quick nor easy process but it can certainly feel defeating each week when the scale barely budges. Weight this week 193.4. Yes, it's a loss! Yes, it's a celebration but I really didn't work hard for it last week. I don't feel like I earned it. Just sheer dumb luck!

Anyways. This ones a little but of a downer. Hopefully moving my body will make me a bit more positive about this process or maybe it's just a phase. Reality has set in. Kinda like stages of grief. I'm grieving my delicious eating habits and hours spent lounging on the couch.

Ok. Off to figure out my night!

Losing it,
Lisa

Figuring it out..

 I know this post is a day late, but my allergies have been keeping me from breathing and seeing! Be ever so thankful if you don't have allergies! Enough about that...  It took me a while to come up with my goal for this week.  In fact until today at about 3:00pm.  I have been doing really well so far with the challenges I have set, and I'm seeing positive results and I'm generally feeling better, but I'm still getting stuck in ruts from 3-6pm.  I don't know what to do with my time and in turn Lucas' time.  I am not gorging myself as I was before but I'm also not doing much of anything.  This in turn tends to run down my motivation and my mood.

This week (and forward, that's how this works ya know!) I will work hard on planning my time and Lucas' time before Joe gets home from work.  Today, I made a priority and went to the Laundromat to wash my comforter.  This has been a long time coming, but I beat myself up when I leave Lucas at school any later than when I get off work.  I feel like he's supposed to be with me when I'm not working.  For goodness sake, I've never even left him for the weekend!  He's almost 2.5 years old!!  Today, though I enjoyed my time with my Mom.  I beat her in cards and chatted about silly stuff.  It was nice.  I was recharged and ready to pick Lucas up.  This is one of my biggest challenges every day when I pick up Lucas.  He is very close to the same age as the children in my class, so after a long day I just want a few minutes of peace and quiet, and if you've met Lucas that's just not gonna happen.  He will sing your ear off all the way home or ask, "What's that?"  while you are driving and unable to look, but it doesn't stop him from asking on repeat until you do.

I know I sound like I'm contradicting myself.  I want to be with him/need time to myself.  I'm pretty sure that's life with a 2 year old though.  You never know what mood you will get from him, and you have to give yourself some time too in order to be able to handle the moods!  It's confusing, but it's my life :)

Tomorrow isn't planned yet, but I suspect we will be making a trip to the park or to my Mom's house.  I have my cousin in town, and Lucas loves him, as do I, so that will be fun.  Heck, maybe we even do both!

Ok, here's the good news WEIGHT 193.4.  It's moving down and that's a good thing as far as I'm concerned.  I'm still playing with MyFitnessPal this week, but I needed more of a mental goal this week.

Wish me luck!  If you wanna do a play date or have an idea of a fun afternoon, let me know!  I'm in!

Losing it.

Lisa

Tough one.

This has been a harder challenge than expected.  I may have also chosen a bad week to replace sweets with healthier options.  I have to give myself some credit.  Though I may have made some poor choices, I still made more good choices than bad.  I had maybe a handful of peanut M&M's here and a piece of cake or two due to it being my birthday week and all.  I'm not mad at myself.  I am proud of the fact that I did make positive changes in my breakfast habits and even took some measure to eat a better lunch.

I have found the Kashi GoLean Oatmeal in Honey and Cinnamon is quite delicious and quite filling.  Normal Quaker Oatmeal would require me to eat two packets worth in order for me to feel full.  The servicing Size of the Kashi Oatmeal is one packet, but it's filled with so many whole grains that it fills you up with just one packet.  I would compare the taste to that of a warm oatmeal bar.  It's very yummy!  I'm also working on eating a yogurt for snack with my kids.  I was finding that if I didn't eat snack with the kids I would be ravaging by lunch time!  This did nothing good for my appetite and then later binges. I love greek yogurt.  I have always been pretty picky with my yogurt.  I only like raspberry yogurt.  Doesn't matter if it's regular or greek, raspberry is the only flavor I can tolerate.  I have only found rapsberry greek yogurt in two different brands Dannon and Chobani.  I am starting to prefer the Dannon brand a bit more.  It tastes very creamy and reminds me a bit of ice cream.  Chobani has been my favorite for quite some time so I'm not giving up on it yet!  The sales will determine my brand for the week!

As far as lunches are concerned I have been trying to make a two part effort.  One, not buy lunch from the restaurant the school orders from for the day and two, eat a healthier lunch.  I have been logging my daily meals in MyFitnessPal to see where I am at and what changes I can be making in order to help affect my health and weight loss.  I had tuna salad for lunch this week, either by itself or on top of a salad.  It was good, but when recording it in MyFitnessPal I realized the serving size for a can of tuna is half a can!  How cray is that!  I usually eat two cans!  I know that's a lot of exclamation points, but my mind was seriously blown.  When I realized this, I tried the next day to make one can and just add lots of veggies.  I added onions and zucchini.  I was too lazy to boil and egg and add it too, but next time I will for sure to help just beef up the tuna salad.

My worst time of day for sweets has been between 3-6pm when Lucas and I are at home typically and waiting for Joe to get home.  This week, I've been doing good.  I will typically have an apple and/or a Nature Valley Granola Bar.  I have always liked the idea and texture of these granola bars, but I never found my flavor.  This week, I found my flavor!  It's cinnamon, surprisingly.  It's one of the healthier more palatable options I could find.  Let's be honest, sometimes after a long workday you just need a crunch and a carb!  May be the wrong mindset, but hey at least I'm looking for healthier options to meet these needs.

Overall you can see I have made changes for the better, I may not have been 100% faithful to my goal as I was in week 1, but I still proud of the 75% I accomplished.  Especially during my birthday week!

Oh, I almost forgot!  I signed up for my first 5K in way too long!  Memorial Day weekend I will be running (hopefully) in the GoGlow Run.

So, what's in store for next week?  Not sure yet, but I'll keep you posted tomorrow!

Flowertown Festival 2013 - Riding the "dinosaur " train

Losing it,

Lisa

One Week Plus One Day...

I'm super proud of myself for having made it through 7 whole days without any Diet Coke.  I know this seems like a minor task, but it's pretty major for me!  I have taken my fair share of Excedrin, and I'm even currently thinking that if I had just one Diet Coke I might actually be able to get this pounding in my head to stop, but I won't.  I know it's probably just that I'm tired or need to drink more water, so I'll be doing both shortly!

It took me some time this week to decide what my next move should be, and since I started off with removing an empty "food" from my diet I think I'm going to continue along that path.  I have a horrible sweet tooth.  I crave a sweet after pretty much any and every meal.  I don't know what it is, but it's been there as long as I can remember and it's only getting worse as I get older!  my prime sweets time is between 3pm and 6pm because it's just me and Lucas in the house and I know he's not going to judge me fore eating peanut M&M's or Publix Oatmeal cookies, so it's almost as if it's not happening, though clearly, my waistline disagrees.  

I was talking to my sister about removing ALL sweets from my daily life, but I know that will only make me focus that much harder on it and will just set me up for failure.  SO, instead I'm going to replace the sweets I eat with healthy alternatives like fruits.  I took a taste of a plum our kids had for snack at school last week and it dawned on me, "Why don't I eat this?"  It was tart and juicy.  It was sweet and best of all it was healthy.  If I ate two on a "bad" day that's not really bad.  sure it's got some sugar in it, but that is at least all natural sugar and it's fruit not chocolate covered nuts or cookies that I trick myself into thinking they are healthy because they contain oatmeal!  

Today on our car ride home, all 8 hours of it, I was pretty tempted by the snacks I had in my bag, but I abstained   Tomorrow in order to not fall back into my bad habits I'll be hitting up the grocery store once school is over!  I really do think this small change will make a huge difference.  

My heart.  My love.  My motivation!

I know it's just day one of this week, but if you have any ideas on what change I should make next week, let me know!  I'm thinking about looking at each of my 3 meals over the next 3 weeks.  Good idea?  Bad idea?

Well this girl is pretty tired from visiting my sister and her sweet new family, so I hope you have a GREAT night!

Losing it,

Lisa