Figuring it out..

 I know this post is a day late, but my allergies have been keeping me from breathing and seeing! Be ever so thankful if you don't have allergies! Enough about that...  It took me a while to come up with my goal for this week.  In fact until today at about 3:00pm.  I have been doing really well so far with the challenges I have set, and I'm seeing positive results and I'm generally feeling better, but I'm still getting stuck in ruts from 3-6pm.  I don't know what to do with my time and in turn Lucas' time.  I am not gorging myself as I was before but I'm also not doing much of anything.  This in turn tends to run down my motivation and my mood.

This week (and forward, that's how this works ya know!) I will work hard on planning my time and Lucas' time before Joe gets home from work.  Today, I made a priority and went to the Laundromat to wash my comforter.  This has been a long time coming, but I beat myself up when I leave Lucas at school any later than when I get off work.  I feel like he's supposed to be with me when I'm not working.  For goodness sake, I've never even left him for the weekend!  He's almost 2.5 years old!!  Today, though I enjoyed my time with my Mom.  I beat her in cards and chatted about silly stuff.  It was nice.  I was recharged and ready to pick Lucas up.  This is one of my biggest challenges every day when I pick up Lucas.  He is very close to the same age as the children in my class, so after a long day I just want a few minutes of peace and quiet, and if you've met Lucas that's just not gonna happen.  He will sing your ear off all the way home or ask, "What's that?"  while you are driving and unable to look, but it doesn't stop him from asking on repeat until you do.

I know I sound like I'm contradicting myself.  I want to be with him/need time to myself.  I'm pretty sure that's life with a 2 year old though.  You never know what mood you will get from him, and you have to give yourself some time too in order to be able to handle the moods!  It's confusing, but it's my life :)

Tomorrow isn't planned yet, but I suspect we will be making a trip to the park or to my Mom's house.  I have my cousin in town, and Lucas loves him, as do I, so that will be fun.  Heck, maybe we even do both!

Ok, here's the good news WEIGHT 193.4.  It's moving down and that's a good thing as far as I'm concerned.  I'm still playing with MyFitnessPal this week, but I needed more of a mental goal this week.

Wish me luck!  If you wanna do a play date or have an idea of a fun afternoon, let me know!  I'm in!

Losing it.

Lisa