Monday...

Had a good day but still trying to figure things out. Fighting cravings and pretty sure I'm gonna lose. I just want a real sweet. I guess you could say, it's just tonight but I know me and I worry that it won't be.

I guess my goal for this week is to get moving! Going to walk with Lisa ( same name different person) after work and that's a start. Right?

I know this took years to put on so this won't be a quick nor easy process but it can certainly feel defeating each week when the scale barely budges. Weight this week 193.4. Yes, it's a loss! Yes, it's a celebration but I really didn't work hard for it last week. I don't feel like I earned it. Just sheer dumb luck!

Anyways. This ones a little but of a downer. Hopefully moving my body will make me a bit more positive about this process or maybe it's just a phase. Reality has set in. Kinda like stages of grief. I'm grieving my delicious eating habits and hours spent lounging on the couch.

Ok. Off to figure out my night!

Losing it,
Lisa